Hey everyone! It’s been a few days since I have written. I have been a bit busy. The wedding was really nice. I had a ton of fun dancing, although it was probably not the best idea to be drinking wine and then flinging myself around wildly. That was a bit rough. It was really nice seeing some of my old friends that I don’t see that often anymore.
Saturday I did some sleeping and then Josh and I went out to eat for my birthday. An early celebration since he will not be in town on my actual birthday. It was really nice. I really don’t like how so many people nowadays act like they do not care about birthdays or that they hate birthdays. It has almost become a trend. I can understand the fear of getting older. But why not celebrate being alive another year. Celebrate being healthy and all the things that you got to experience in the year that has passed. I feel like it is more about celebrating the life you are so lucky to be living. That you have made it this far. It does not have to be a self-centered celebration, but rather a grateful celebration of how lucky you are to be alive. That is something worth celebrating.
I know I am lucky to have made it this far in my life. We all have things we have overcome, times we have felt like we couldn’t or didn’t want to go on, difficult feats. But you are here now. You are alive and you are in control of what you make of your life. Some of us maybe have to try harder than others, some of us are lucky enough to have been born into a decent life, with a decent family. That’s more than many people can say.
I see my birthday as a time when I can look back on my life, and the things I have overcome that were difficult for me. I can be proud of getting this far, and reflect on how I have changed. So why not celebrate with people that you love? Anyways, my birthday is not until next week. I will be 28. Which does feel old, to me. Only because it is the oldest I have ever been, haha. And sometimes I cannot help but compare where I am in my life, to where others my age are in their lives. Which I know is not a good thing to do, sometimes though, it is difficult for it not to cross my mind…and give me a sense of impending doom. I try to remind myself that people have had different experiences and different obstacles. Mine have delayed me. But that is okay, because I have still come a long way. While I do not have some things on course, I do have others. I am grateful for everything I have in my life, including the people. I am lucky to have a warm bed, plenty of food, a home to live in, money to pursue my hobbies.
Anyways, that’s enough about birthdays. I am working on writing a story, so I might post some of that later. I am trying to get back into writing more. I have always loved writing, even more-so than photography. I have just been struggling to reach back into my imagination. But you just have to force yourself to do it. Start small and you’ll get there. Anyways, I’ll post more later. I decided with each post I am going to include a picture of mine. Just a random one. Talk more later!
Photo of Tammy Knowles in Floral Fantasy Series.